25 April, 2010

something else.

sorry if that last post seemed obnoxious.

it's bothering me to have had it front and center
all.weekend.long.

I promise I'm not psychotic.

It was just a sad day.

But I'm VERY happy now. :)

I'm far too tired to blog anything important tonight,
the purpose of this post is simply so that something else
will show up instead of my sob sob sobbing. :)

I'll be back soon with more.

In the mean time,
lets talk about how my husband is HOME
and I survived my hardest.week.yet post tragedy.

all by my lonesome!

I'm feeling fancy.
I'm not going to lie.

fancy.
fancy.
fancy.

Normally I'd buy myself ice cream to celebrate
(as in an entire pint of new york super fudge chunk. yum.)
but since I've still got that last 10 to go
(which seems to have congregated right around my booty and midline. bleh.)
I'm settling for pretty fingers and toes.

Love,

Me

PS- I'm kinda holding off on posting recent
shoots until the launch of the new blog. . .
HOPEFULLY THIS WEEK!

just fyi. :)

11 comments:

L. said...

Oh, Natalie, you shouldn't be sorry at all. I thought your last post was raw and heart-wrenching. You deserve to express every bit of that. I'm glad you survived the week.

Rae said...

It's okay to be mad/sad/grieving/whichever--and it's okay to need to air it out, too, for it to go away. You don't have to censure your feelings. It's really a-okay!

Mills Family said...

Natalie,

We never met by my husband and I lived in Hawaii for 6 months a few years ago. My husband worked as an intern in the same department as your husband.

Just wanted you to know that your last post was very insightful and touching. Thank you for sharing your heart and your very personal and inner feelings. What your experiencing is completely normal and it is all part of the healing and grieving process.

As a nurse, I am familiar with the 5 stages of the grieving process. Denial is the first phase then anger and bargaining. Then one will experience depression and finally acceptance. It is important to go through each step of the grieving process so that one can move on to the next.

It is completely normal and healthy to have these feelings of anger and depression these will help you reach the acceptance phase. Hang in there. Time will heal your heart. We love and pray for your family.

Ashley said...

I am so excited to see the new blog! And I totally understand the last 10 booty lbs. I am fighting them myself. Also I like that you are real. The end. xoxo

Meilani said...

Hi Natalie. I think of you often. Love you!

Naomi Costales said...

Natalie...no apology needed. You're human. You're a mom who went through a great tragedy. You're WILL have "Gavin-moments". I still have "Joseph-moments". And all the while God upholds us through it all. I'm glad you still talk about him, in any way. Huge hugs to you!

Naomi

Scott & Tami said...

Love you Nat!

Melissa said...

You're so fun. We like you. Lots. Can't wait to see the new blog...we're dying for a glimpse!!!

Sarah Garner said...

New York Super Fudge Chunk heals many wounds of the heart.

Though I don't understand, and can't even imagine what you're going through, I know what it's like to just need to be unhappy sometimes. It's all part of healing.

I'm praying for you.

Heather said...

Do not apologize!!! They are YOUR feelings, and you need to express them. I really like the fact that you are REAL. It actually makes me want to read your blog more, maybe that sounds weird, but life isn't always easy, and it's never fair. (Psh, obviously)

It gets old reading about peoples "perfect" lives. People who never write about real life. I love to see and read peoples every day. The fun, sad, frustrating, happy, funny, ho hum everyday pieces of life. That's what is interesting. That is what I learn from! Thanks for being who you are. I think we all learn a lot from reading about "those days". I do! It's real. I think it helps us love each other a little more. :)

Stirlingdesigns said...

Just stopping by to send you cyber (((((hugs)))))) - I sure wish I could just reach thru time and space and give you one - my heart aches for you - my soul rejoices you have your faith and I pray for inner peace that will come, one day you will be at peace with this. Don't rush it - you're good - you're normal and human, please don't apologize or beat yourself up.

Keeping you in my thoughts!
Diane