when I start thinking about how all we have
of him are cell phone videos. . .
how there aren't pictures of all of us together. . .
or how a huge hole has been blown through the middle of my life.
through the center.of.my.heart.
I watch this,
and I feel sick.
overwhelmed with grief.
and then. . .
through the grace of a loving Father in Heaven,
who loves me perfectly. . .
I am filled with joy. . .
over everything I have left.
and I'm overcome with gratitude for the promise of eternity.