03 February, 2010

try again later.

Bleh.

Feeling so completely and utterly uninspired.

Try again later.

xx.

N

PS. just don't leave me forever or I'm sure to have a meltdown
of epic proportions.

27 comments:

Gretzbabi said...

The path is hard no matter what our Faith, the tears and sadness is there, something we carry with us and learn to go on with. Knowing the truth is the best, but it doesn't make it easier. I love you, you are in my prayers sweetones. We just have to endure, endure until the JOY comes and we are all reunited together again.

Chelsey said...

Natalie,
I wanted to let you know how sorry I am for your loss. I took care of Gavin while he was on the 3rd floor on the Infant unit and my heart was broken when I heard about Gavin. I have kept you and your family in my prayers and in my heart. Your faith has inspired me so much and another nurse at my work was telling me how much of an example and inspiration you are! I know it is so hard to see the silver lining when something like this happens but last night I saw a glitter of silver shining through. Your faith and reliance on the lord and savior has inspired so many and through that endless possibilites could come. I wanted to thank you for your faith and love for your son and for our heavenly father and his son. You and your son have truly touched my life and strengthened my faith as well. So thank you again and my prayers are with you and your family

Amanda said...

When I was grieving especially hard, my pastor said, "Don't give up, because you made it to today! You are a survivor!" Every night, my husband and I would look at each other and say, "Well, we made it through today." I began to cling to that phrase and it gave me hope that my family would make it through. My heart feels so attached to your journey and I am praying for you every moment I think of you.
Know that you and you family are deeply loved!

Amy said...

You are being prayed for.

Linden said...

praying for you and your family.
God bless
Linden

Jenny Bracken said...

You an example and inspiration to so many....still thinking of and praying for your family. :)

Anonymous said...

my heart breaks/aches/cries out for you and your family. i just wanted to let you know you are being prayed for by many. i pray daily for you to have strength to make it through the day. not being a mom i can only imagine what you are going through and it is more then i can stand. your faith in the lord is amazing and a huge inspiration to many. i know it has made me pray more and have more faith. my relationship with God is stronger because of your blog. your amazing. your strong. your beautiful. hang in there. much love & may God bless you and yours.

meredith

The Bowers! said...

Hi Natalie,
I found your blog and story through my friend Kaitlin...so you don't know me. But I just wanted to offer my condolences for your loss. I'm so sorry about your sweet little boy.

Thinking of you in CA,
Julie

Beth S said...

Hang in there Natalie. No matter what you have to grieve and go thru the process in order to heal. There will always be a piece missing but hopefully eventually it will be more peaceful and less hurtful. The memories will make you laugh instead of cry. Take it one day at a time. I think of you everyday and my heart still hurts for you everyday as well. Your own strength, you faith and those around will help get you thru. Take care.

Sabrina said...

Thinking of you and praying for you.

Naomi's Blessed Life said...

"Gavin Moment"? Remember I told you that I have what I call "Joseph Moments". And yes, I still have them. Praying for you my friend.

Kelly and Nate Wright said...

Hi Natalie,
You don't know me, like so many others who have commented on your blog. I found your blog through my friend Erin and have been following you for a while. I know things are rough but I hope you know your blog continues to inspire me every day. I feel like I know you and that you are my big sister. I really love that. You truly have been blessed with a gift of making everyone feel that same way. Anyway, I also wanted you to know that I also LOVE the photography tutorials you have created. I've been getting into photography and I'm trying to learn more and more and you have helped me understand so many concepts that I didn't get before. So, thanks.
Continued prayers for you and your family from Chicago.
Love,
Your wannabe sister :)
Kelly

shari berry bo-berry said...

oh natalie, I will never leave you!!! have as many bleh days as you need...you're allowed to!!!! take some time to heal...if that's possible!

ashley said...

Don't worry we are still here. :)

Kerri said...

You remain in my prayers, and will for as long as you think you need them, and maybe even longer.

sarah.elizabeth<3 said...

aw, natalie! you are amazing. i hope inspiration hits you soon. i still pray for you and your family! i adore you and am grateful for your strong testimony! loves<3

Tory said...

Natalie - I found your blog completely accidently a couple weeks ago (really, I don't think it was an accident - I believe I was meant to find and read your words...). And, like so many others, I'm so inspired by your faith and strength and love. You truly are an amazing woman and mama. Just wanted to share that - I know that there are so many people who will be here waiting for you.

Gretchen said...

Natalie,
I like to think of Gavin and Bart taking turns holding Baby Gavin and it makes my heart feel good.
I love you and Richie and the boys and I know our Heavenly Father remembers each of us in detail.
Gretchen

Jacki said...

I seldom comment but I'm always here.

kelijeandesign said...

I also stumbled upon your blog by accident... and I appreciate all of your positive strength and appreciation of life and faith. I am sending all of my strong inspiration vibes to you.

Rae said...

Here's a quote I love (hope you do too) that I find comforting when I'm feeling blah--for whatever reason! Sadness, grief, or feeling uninspired--it's perfect for all of that:
“The life of a creator is not the only life nor perhaps the most interesting which a [person] leads. There is a time for play and a time for work, a time for creation and a time for lying fallow. And there is a time, glorious too in its own way, WHEN ONE SCARCELY EXISTS, WHEN ONE IS A COMPLETE VOID. I mean when boredom seems the very stuff of life.” --don't know who said it, but I love it.

Julie said...

We're still with you, and you all are still in our prayers!

TanuvasaCasa said...

Oh natalie...I'm here for the long haul! Nope, not going anywhere. I love you love you dearly. Please tell me how I can help, because heaven knows I want to. You are amazing, and I can't believe you call me your friend. I am too lucky for words.

Annie Link said...

here. always.

Ams said...

Never ever ever leaving... don't you worry lady!
Take a breather... nothing wrong with that :)

Marg said...

You are still in my prayers. take all the time you need - will still be here.

Brady and Rachel said...

Prayers continually coming your way and the way of all those others who may be struggling in oh so many ways. Take the time you need. You need to do what you feel is best for you and your family...we will continue to pray in the meantime. Loving you always. :)