05 May, 2010

miss you every moment.


This was one of the happiest moments in my life.

So much happiness.

We were complete.

. . . oblivious to the monster around the corner.

__________

I miss you every moment little boy.

Thank you for being mine.

My life is better having known you,
my soul is richer after having said goodbye.

You gave me the gift of faith
and a perfect trust in God's eternal plan.

I love you completely.

Happy Mother's Day. . .

I am so glad I'm your mommy.

xx.

Me

__________

We will be complete again.

one fine day.

of that I am certain.

(and good mercy, I cannot wait!)

35 comments:

Jessica K. said...

I am in tears! You have precious boys and I know that you will all be complete again one day. Till then you have a little angel watching over you and your family.

Ashley Madsen said...

Happy Mother's day to you and all those other sweet mommies out there. Thank heavens for eternal families.

~City Love... now, forever, always~ said...

Happy Mother's Day, Natalie.

You and your beautiful family are always in my thoughts.

Great big, huge, long (((((((hugs))))))) to you.

Tasha said...

Happy Mother's Day! Crying my eyes out is such a wonderful way to start the day... Love ya!

XO,
Tasha

Ashley said...

Happy Mothers Day for such a beautiful sweet Momma. xoxoxoxo

Sara Weir said...

You. are. amazing. That's all.

Watson Family said...

Sweet.... Happy Mother's Day! XO

Our Blog Spot said...

This is such a sweet picture. I can see your eyes smiling. So perfect. Love you Gavin! Love you sissy.

Brady and Rachel said...

Tears are flowing. I hope you have a simply Wonderful Mothers Day. You are one truly amazing mother, and God knows it! Thank you for helping me to strengthen my own faith.. Saying a pray for you today. every day. That photo speaks volumes of the love your sweet family has for one another. Its amazing how a photo can talk to one's heart. simply amazing.

brigette said...

Happy Mothers Day. This day is so hard for us baby loss mommas. Sending much love and hugs!! Your family is precious!

Melanie said...

What a beautiful post. I am counting my four blessings on this Mother's Day and thinking of you and my sister (who lost her baby boy to SIDS at just 3 days old last summer). Thankful for the eternal role of Mothers.

HayleeS said...

Sending love and prayers your way. Happy Mother's Day.

Lali Johnson said...

I'm totally crying right now :)

Happy Mother's Day Natalie!

Joanna Tano said...

Natalie - you are such a wonderful person and mother! Happy Mothers Day to you and your family. Your positive attitude about everything in life, even hard struggles is so inspiring and beautiful! XOXO - Sending prayers your way.

Damaris said...

thank goodness for God and friends and family, specially eternal families. I hope you have a peaceful Mother's Day.

Kelly said...

Happy Mother's Day, Natalie.

Lots of hugs,
Kelly

Shari said...

happy mama's day to one of the best women I know...

xo, shari

Jennifer said...

just another fan of yours in tears. Being a Mother is never easy. Thanks for the reminder to enjoy each part.

*~Petra~* said...

Thanks for being brave enough to share and reminding mothers everywhere to treasure every moment we have... Happy Mother's Day to you. ♥

kimsueellen said...

Haven't had a single second to stop by...all caught up now. Prayers still for you every day. Love you so very much! Happy Mother's Day. What a sweet reunion it will be!

xoxo

Ashley said...

Your words always touch my heart Natalie...
I just thought I'd let you know I was at my OB appointment recently, and I saw a brochure about Pertussis, thought about you, took one home. Read it, sent my husband to the Dr. to get protected, asked my Dr. about a vaccination for me... Thank you. Thank you for sharing your story and your broken heart with the world. After reading your story-- shame on me if a baby ever got pertussis because I wasn't up to date on my own vaccinations. You are always in my prayers.

Ashley

www.tiffanygarfield.com said...

Seriously, in tears. so sweet. happy mothers day. your boys are so lucky. :)

Heather said...

I am in tears. So beautiful. And my heart once again just aches for you. Big hug :) I love the way you write. Happy Happy Mother's Day. You deserve a wonderful one!

LEWandBEV said...

Happy Mother's Day!! You will be together again and it will be wonderful :0)

shelly said...

Nat -- this photo did me in. (Gorgeous, by the way!) I love you ALL in it, of course, but oh - my HEART, when I look at you and Lincoln! And Raleigh's gentle hand... This is one of those "a picture is worth a thousand words".

Anonymous said...

Dear Natalie,

I am a pediatrician/mother and have been following your blog. Your story broke my heart. Because of you and little sweet Gavin, I am in talk with the hospital I work at to have the Tdap as part of post-partum care. Happy Mother's Day, Sweet Dear Mother-of-Four-Crazy-Sons.

Jared and Paige said...

I found your blog tonight via digital photography school. I thought I'd check out your photos after reading one of your articles. Now I am in tears and have mumbled several prayers on your behalf over the past half-hour as I read about your life. I too have sweet boys, like you. I have the Gospel of Jesus Christ in my life too, and I am so glad that you do. I will continue to pray for you. Thanks for the beautiful photos and the help remembering what a special job I have as a mom.

Glenda said...

Aww, such a heartwarming post. I'm a mom myself and I can totally relate.

Happy Mothers' Day!

Kristen said...

My first "real" mother's day was spent this way - our one and only child gone. At church they told all the mothers to stand up and I didn't know what to do. I think my heart exploded. I don't remember whether I stood up or not but I was certain everyone was staring at me. (Now I'm sure they weren't.) Halfway through the day I decided to focus on my own mother and that helped. We will see our babies again, and that will be the true mother's day!

Heather said...

Natalie, I hope and pray you are blessed this Mother's Day weekend.

Niki said...

Thank's for your example of faith...I hope I never have to feel what you feel, but I am grateful that I can learn from you both spiritually and artistically. Happy Mother's Day.

jefferies said...

Dear Natalie,
Thank you for talking about Gavin...and in such a sweet way. I found your blog from a friend. I'm so sorry about your sweet Gavin. I too lost my baby..back in August. I love the way you share your side of the story. I love that I found your blog and feel that it is a place to commune with another mama in a similar earthly circumstance.
Thanks. A lot.

-Kate

Natalie. said...

Kate,

I am so very sorry about your baby.

ALL of my love to you.

Natalie

Jackie said...

You are unbelievable. I've been so inspired by your strength. You are such a special person.

Sarah said...

What a sweet Momma you are, what precious babies you have. God Bless your angel.