10 May, 2009

Dear Mom: Love, Gavin.

Today just happens to be the second mother's day my momma will spend without her sweet boy. Mom, this little note is to you, from him. I love you.

Dear Momma,

Happy Mother's Day to the best mom ever!
I love you so so much!
Thank you for being the perfect Mom for me.

Thank you for always listening to me:
I know I rarely had a lot to say,
but I want you to know that I always knew you were there if I did.

Thank you for always making sure I felt 100% loved.
There was never a question in my heart that you loved me with all of yours.

Thank you for being so supportive of all my
CRAZY ideas.
You never told me "that can't be done"
rather you helped me find a way to make it happen . . .
. . . or just waited quietly and patiently until I came to my senses. :)
HOWEVER just so you and everyone else know:
in my next life, I fully intend to be a sheep herder in New Zealand.

If I could borrow some words from my pal Abraham,
all that I am or could hope to be,
I owe to YOU,
my angel mother.

I know you miss me today,
but I am exactly where I'm meant to be
and doing exactly what I'm meant to be doing.
I know you know that.
Don't let yourself forget.

I love you,
I miss you,
I'm with you often,
and I'll see you sooner than you know!

Ooooh I love you,

Gavin


Mom,
Can you believe this is your second Mother's Day without him?
On the one hand I imagine you feel the way that I do:
GRATEFUL to have so much time under our belts to soften the pain.
On the other hand,
I know it's a sad and solemn feeling
to recognize how very long it's been
since we've held him in our arms. . .

It's true you know.
You were and are the perfect mom for both of us
and we both love you so much!
Happy happy Mother's Day!
Have some fish and chips for me.
Actually don't because I think real English fish and chips are disgusting . . .

xoxo, Nat







8 comments:

Ads said...

That's so nice. :)

PamE said...

Oh Wow! That just brought tears to the eyes of every mom who reads it... Mine included.

thanks for posting.

richie said...

beautiful.

Heather said...

Oh wow! I can only imagine the pain that you are feeling with the loss of a loved one. I wish you all peace as time continues for you without your brother.
I have 4 sisters and one almost passed away recently. All the thoughts that went through me as we have gone through the recovery with her, are just sometimes overwhelming.
Thank you so much for posting this. I've probably said to much for one comment but this really touched me. I look forward to reading your blog.

Annie said...

Sweet NattyGann,
There really aren't enough words (and especially not for this venue) to describe how much this meant to me. I read it several days ago--only today am I able to comment.
But please know this: You, and all the wonder you bring to my life in so many precious ways, are my Everything, my Reason to go on, my one, true Happy Thought.

I love you,
Mom

Melissa said...

Natalie, this is a beautiful post. This year was my mom's first mother's day without mikey and it's been really hard. It's been 10 months since we lost him and each first is so hard, I know I've been sinking into depression and it's been really hard so it's nice to see some encouragement from you. I know there is light at the end of this tunnel I just have to find it

Melissa said...

P.S. I forgot to say how amozing that pic of you and Gavin is, I wish I had one of me and my bro like that.

cip365 said...

Wow...this is my first visit to your blog and after reading this I am hooked. This is so beautiful - the words and the picture. I hope both you and your mom had a wonderful Mother's Day!